Of Unity and Purpose

March 30, 2009

I really need to get a good night’s rest for a change, if I’m ever going to finish what I need to finish before the week ends. A clear mind does wonders for concentration, and that’s exactly what I need, really. On one hand it’s looking good the requirement for Dr. Baytan’s class for a change, as I now have a clear idea of what to do for my Thesis-defense redux. Will have to get that out of the way when I get home tomorrow. On the other, I’m having serious doubts about whether I’m even up to what Dr. Cruz is asking us to do. Argh, the anxiety I feel about that submission is so palpable that, I swear, it’s like I moving through a dense soup.

Gotta get my act together for the home stretch. Got to focus.


Crucis et Crucio

March 29, 2009

Well, that pretty much tears it. Definitely not going to get much sleep this week. I hate procrastinating as much as the next guy, but it’s going to be intense, that’s for sure. Mmm, have to finish Dr. Baytan’s requirement first, then see if I can do something about that final paper for Dr. Cruz.

The Dichotomy of Eros

March 28, 2009

Well, now it’s down to the final stretch of this term’s subjects, and I have to admit, it was a relief for both my professors to have given us the day off (technically) though this only means that whatever free time we have this week will HAVE to be devoted to the final submissions. In the case of Dr. Baytan’s class, it’ll have to be a 5-page thesis-lite with accompanying 10-minute defense, while in Dr. Cruz’s class it’ll be a Palanca-level 10-page submission. I’m not sure, but it’s definitely going to be hard, especially since I haven’t reserved any leaves for the end of this week. I guess I’ll have to get used to not sleeping again, or at the very least running on 2 hours of rest.

Spirals and Stairways

March 27, 2009

Well, this is a fine mess I’ve gotten myself into. I somehow expected that it would really be hard to pad an autobiographical essay with, well, specifics of my life so far. The problem here really is that while I remember the broader details of my past, I stumble on the specifics. Always. Yeesh, this is going to be harder than I expected.

The Cleansing

March 26, 2009

Well, I’ve gone and done it. I spent the whole of today just goofing off, to hopefully cleanse myself of distraction so I can spend my day tomorrow at the task at hand… Which is of course, finishing my autobiographical paper. Really have to focus tomorrow, so I’m going to have to disconnect my DSL for the duration as well. Mmm. Oh well, what’s a day off the net when compared to a .5 addition to one’s final grade?

Executing the Contemporary

March 25, 2009

Well, I’m on leave for tomorrow and Friday, which gives me time to compose my Autobiographical essay for Dr. Cruz’s class, but I wonder if it’s really enough, as it’s supposed to be around 9 pages long. I mean, how am I supposed to fill that out? My life so far, frankly, is unexciting and mundane. Yeesh. I suppose I should be happy that it’s the only think I have to look forward to submitting this week, as Dr. Baytan is giving us the day off to gather what we need for the Thesis-outline redux we have to give him next week.

How to start though? I suppose I could just do what I’ve always done with my previous submissions, and just RAMBLE, and see where it takes me.

Twiddling Thumbs

March 24, 2009

Although this week isn’t going to be as bad as the last, I’ve still got lingering fears about the result of my comprehensive exam for Dr. Baytan’s class, as it’ll really put a dent in the average grade I have to maintain to stay in the Graduate degree program. If it really gets down to it, then I’ll really have to complete the requirements in Dr. Cruz’s class, but while I think I can handle a cut-and-dry 8-page autobiographical creative nonfiction essay, the real doozy is the Palanca Award-level contribution. Frankly, I don’t think I even have the nerve to try. Then there’s the ‘short’ 5-page pseudo-thesis defense we’ll have to do for Dr. Baytan’s class to close out the trimester…

On the non-academic front… I have to say, I was surprised that the confrontation between Ate Grace (Suarez) and her philandering father wasn’t… louder. As the next-door neighbors we’ve gotten used to the rather loud arguments father and daughter have had over the years, but given the fact that Tito Nanoy brought home his mistress on the pretense that she’s really just hired househelp, well, a confrontation was inevitable, but there wasn’t any of the expected thunderous words and explosive diatribes. It was just as well though that it got resolved as calmly as it did, with the other woman being run out of the house… Though it’s doubtful the respite Ate Grace won for herself would last.

It makes me worry sometimes. Now, I’m the first to admit that I really like Ate Grace (despite the fact that I was the best friend of her deceased brother), but there are times where I really don’t know what to make out of her family’s situation… Or if there’s a solution that can make everyone involved happy. Tsk.