Can’t Be Taken Back

April 13, 2017

I didn’t realize that I could still cry myself to sleep at my age, but apparently I still had it in me.

Had a big fight with my sister, and about the laundry, of all things. And despite using a joking tone, I said something that really offended her. As a result, she says that she’s leaving for her home in Quezon City this Easter weekend… And she’s taking her son with her, and they’ll never visit ever so as to no longer bother me about the extra laundry.

I said sorry, but the damage was already done. Foot into mouth, as usual. Even my father got angry at me, and how I was being such a stick in the mud for complaining about something as trivial as extra laundry, and how because my sister was still family, of course I should also do her share. It’s all too much…

And then, and then I realized that, with my sister leaving with her kid, and with tatay staying over there on weekdays, the house’s will go back to being quiet… And lifeless. And with just ol’ me as the place’s occupant.

I found the thought of being left alone in the house to be terrible and so, so lonely.


Not That Much Of A Surprise

April 12, 2017

It was really busy yesterday to say the least. A lot of calls, likely from customers wanting things to be done before the Holy Week hits its stride. It was a stroke of luck that I was scheduled forty-five minutes worth of training time yesterday, as I was able to use it to catch my breath. It also segued into my last break too.

Didn’t go home early yesterday. I had to swing around to Quezon City and drop by an acquaintance at the Heart Center. After catching up on old times I finally got home during the late afternoon. Let’s just say that neither my sister nor my dad were thrilled about that slight detour.

Critical Work Days

April 11, 2017

It’s been quite a bit since I last made an entry, and let’s just say that things were a lot more busier than usual. That, and those physical pains… Let’s just say that I’m happy I’m not walking with a limp, on either of my feet.

In any case it’s a new week, and as intimated by the title of this entry, the next few days are considered critical work days by the company. Which means absences are a no-no.

Oh and I didn’t have any Japanese class earlier, so I was able to use most of the day to rest and prepare for the upcoming shift.