Can’t Be Taken Back

April 13, 2017

I didn’t realize that I could still cry myself to sleep at my age, but apparently I still had it in me.

Had a big fight with my sister, and about the laundry, of all things. And despite using a joking tone, I said something that really offended her. As a result, she says that she’s leaving for her home in Quezon City this Easter weekend… And she’s taking her son with her, and they’ll never visit ever so as to no longer bother me about the extra laundry.

I said sorry, but the damage was already done. Foot into mouth, as usual. Even my father got angry at me, and how I was being such a stick in the mud for complaining about something as trivial as extra laundry, and how because my sister was still family, of course I should also do her share. It’s all too much…

And then, and then I realized that, with my sister leaving with her kid, and with tatay staying over there on weekdays, the house’s will go back to being quiet… And lifeless. And with just ol’ me as the place’s occupant.

I found the thought of being left alone in the house to be terrible and so, so lonely.


Close Calls

March 10, 2017

It was about the middle of yesterday’s shift when I suddenly felt the familiar tingle in my lower back. It was a muscle spasm again, and it would only be a matter of time before I was bowed over, by pain if not discomfort. 

I told my supervisor as much, but it was close to my second break, so I just had to last long enough until then, as I would be able to down to the Mercury Drug branch at the ground floor of Market Market and buy some muscle relaxant. Which I did. I took a tablet almost immediately, and while the effects weren’t immediate, it did get me through the remaining hours of my shift.

As I feel these aches and pains, I really feel my age. It’s a little annoying.


March 2, 2017

I was really relieved when one of my old workmates came through and paid the three thousand pesos she owed me yesterday. My finances were in such dire straights yesterday, I even had to borrow a hundred pesos from my supervisor just to be able to claim the money from SMART Padala. Sigh.

In any case this should tide me over until the third… At which I have to say goodbye to most of it since I need to pay the PLDT bill. Ah well, easy come, easy go.

At least payday’s close enough.

Just In Time, And Not A Moment Later

December 14, 2016

If the office emails we’ve received are correct, we’re supposed to get our 13th-month pay today. It’s a bit of a welcome relief as, after paying off what I owed to my sister, my savings are once more in dire straights, which is never a good thing especially with the upcoming holiday season.

Well, that and I still need to get something for our team’s exchange gift this week.

Oh, and yesterday it rained quite a bit. It was enough for me to bring my jacket and umbrella, though thankfully it didn’t last through the shift. By the time I got out during the afternoon, it was actually warm for a change.

Just That Tiny Bit Done

November 23, 2016

Today marks the end of the so-called “transfer reduction training”, and I’m happy to report that I passed with flying colors. This means that, from tomorrow onward, we’re going to dive into the important stuff: the 2.0 proper… The big question is whether or not we retain all that knowledge by the end of the week, of course.

Oh, and apparently we’re going to have a team lunch tomorrow, so that’s something to look forward to.

Incidentally I’ve got the house to myself again, as my sister and my father went back to Quezon City with my nephew, since the stuff they were here for in the first place — that is, the package from nanay — arrived yesterday. It’s going to be quiet for a while for sure, though I worry about our place getting even more crowded now, with all the non-perishables that arrived.

Foolish Financial Choices

November 2, 2016

Let me just say that I had a spat of poor judgement, and more or less sunk myself about three thousand pesos and more over the course of a forthnight. This is what happens when let my desperation get the better of me. You’d think I’d have learned my lesson the first time this happened, but noo….

In any case, at least payday’s on Friday, so that’ll make up for it somewhat, but still, ugh… I could have used that money for better things.

Oh, and my sister and tatay returned to Quezon City with the baby, but this time around I was able to run into them just as I got off EDSA station, just in time for them to go the other direction. It also rained a bit, but by that point I was already at home, relaxing.

Doesn’t Feel Any Different

October 26, 2016

For the first night on the phones after our phone service training, it sure didn’t feel any different. I guess when one gets down to it, phone services comprises just a small percentage of the number of calls we get every evening. Oh well, that’s a five-hundred peso addition to my salary premium so I can’t complain.

Speaking of little annoyances at work, I’m a little miffed that they took away our call queue watcher. Maybe they don’t want us to see just how big an overflow we’re getting from customer care? Because it sure feels like it…

Oh, and my father came by early, instead of dropping by at the end of the week with the rest of the family. I guess it’s because someone has to be home to receive the package, if and when it comes.